One Pure and Holy Passion - Passion Worship Band
“give me one pure and holy passion, give me one magnificent obsession, give me one glorious ambition for my life, to know and follow hard after You”
As I sink in deeper into the adultworld I find myself asking what do I want to offer to society? Will all I have to talk about at dinner convos be about medicine? Sure I can talk about that patient I stabilized in the ER, that baby I delivered, that case I diagnosed, but those stories end pretty quickly. Unless you have other medical comrades to follow your thunder, you’ll usually receive some “oh that’s so cool, must be fun“‘s or evoke the occasional “ooh“‘s or “eww”s neither of which were responses fished for. And the truth is we in medicine usually want reprises from our world, moments of connection with the real world. But when we emmerge from our hospital microcosms we have so little to offer. Ideas and events fuel conversations and human connection. Time spent together weave hearts and souls together. What if you have little of the latter and as such have few of the formers? Then I consider, will I only be surrounded by people in medicine or will I make those who aren’t feel out of place or will I feel out of place? How do I avoid being estranged, feeling like I’m an anomaly, a strange girl who devoted herself to something but out of touch with 90% of the things that move and shape our culture? Must I choose? With knowledge of a busy training period ahead, eating up the rest of my youth, I feel like I must.
Is this a lonely road? I cannot say. I do not even know what holds today, or any power to make it stay. I do not have fine things to sell nor ways to ensure what the future foretells. There will be lonely times, I dare do say. But I will live my life with hope each day, until He calls me home to stay, right by His side forever and always.
Something I was thinking about as I was on a long drive home the other day. Have you ever heard the question “which do you consider more important, justice or mercy?” most people consider the answer “mercy” to reflect a more compassionate human being but it’s curious to me because you really can’t have mercy without justice. You can have justice without mercy, but without the foundation of justice, a set of absolute truths, you don’t have the existence of mercy. Mercy requires something to be applied to and without relentless immovable justice the precious essence of mercy ceases to exist.
I just had a thought about the future man.
I don’t know what triggers these thoughts, but I like to think of them as little premonitions about the future or what the future might hold.
He will love life. His existence will just drip with the abundance of joy, and his source will be love from above and his immense love for the giver of all goodness.
I lost 15+ lbs over the past few months by eating less, eating healthier and exercising more often.
It feels good. real good.
I’ve never been skinny in my entire life, sophomore year in college was the closest. My goal was to get back to my mid college weight, but now I want to lose more. And no more procrastination! I’m at the prime of life and I’m thinking more about my health so I’m aiming to be thin for the rest of my life.
It’s gonna take some time, but I’m gonna do it!
Cheers to health!
