A lot of people who don’t know me well think I’m an Extrovert. haha. I seriously laugh when I hear this. I guess I’m a pretty good actress then. I used to try to argue with those people, but I just don’t care anymore. The truth is social interaction tires me out. a lot. Especially when I’m around people who I don’t particularly know well or even like. 

Case in point was last night. A bunch of med school people went to eat dinner cuz some ppl were here from out of town so my roommates and I decided to make an appearance. 

I’ve never been drunk (everyone is finding this out and trying to make it happen, ughhh) but I feel like it’s pretty unnecessary for me cuz sometimes I just get ridiculous without alcohol. I just get in these moods sometimes where I just don’t care about being demure and as I try to fake being extroverted I kind of get carried away. I get caught up with forcing myself to laugh and joke around without much inhibition. I feel more of a need to do this when I’m around really quiet people as was the case yesterday. It tires me out like no other. As soon as I got in my friend’s car, I just sighed out of exhaustion and crumpled in my seat, cutting conversation down the entire rest of the evening.  

Today I have retreated to Starbucks and am taking full advantage of my newfound Gold Card status.